I’ve reached a point in my life where I don’t know what to do next for the best. There are a few options open to me – some more lucrative than others, some more career-based than others; and others that are just way more convenient!
The main crux of the dilemma is this: do I take a relatively well-paid but possibly not relevant job, clear a vast proportion of the debt acquired from my studies and be of more help with the household bills (thank you Boyfriend x) or continue with the smaller, minimum wage jobs that will give me relevant experience and opportunities to ‘try-out’ different career paths so I don’t make mistakes further down the track.
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There is always the option to return to university and do a PhD, an idea I’m very keen on. But with the increase in tuition fees in many universities, how will that affect the amount of funding a student can secure? On a personal level, is it time to stop studying and think about the possibilities of buying a house with Boyfriend? A PhD may set that idea back by several years. Boyfriend currently works an hour and a half’s drive from our flat (yes, that is three hours driving EVERY DAY) – is it selfish to continue to lean on him and make him do all the hard work or it is sensible in the long run? It’s not as though I’d be swanning around going out to lunch everyday but there’s no guarantee I won’t be having this same job/money/career dilemma in four years time. And that is a long time to commit to if you have doubts. Not to mention his dreams and ideas for life. He deserves as much support from me as I’ve had from him.
I’ve been very fortunate that I’ve had an amazing support network throughout my life so far, particularly over the last few years when I’ve been working hard to correct mistakes I made when I was younger. Perhaps it is this experience that is making me think long and hard about what to do next – I’m hesitant to just jump in without thinking ahead five years or so. But this hesitance may cause me to miss out on great opportunities and chances because I’m too scared to try in case I fail or it’s the wrong pathway.
I’m sure I’m not the only one out there who struggles with these decisions. I must say, talking it over with people helps. Sometimes, anyway! Often they throw in another option that hadn’t even occurred to me! Lists help too. But then I will write a list for just about anything!
I don’t know yet what I will do, or the best path for me to take. What I do know is that making the right decision is hard, making the wrong decision is harder, but that every decision will give you new experiences and opportunities.
Don’t be scared – things will work out in the end.